Am I crazy?
Well, I AM sitting in bed typing this late at night while guzzling a sports drink. I just about had a coronary a few minutes ago soon after quenching my thirst realizing that I was inadvertently drinking Weight Watchers points.
Wait, let me use my nifty scanner on my iPad.
Oh damn, I just drank 4 points. Argh!
Habits, so hard to break.
Sigh…………, I’m back on the wagon. For the 2,566th time.
So while I’ve been spending time away from this place, life happens. This latest foray into weight control has no connection to a new years resolution. Rather, it’s a pure scared straight lesson for a middle-aged woman. I guess that’s what I am now, today… middle-aged…. If I happen to live to the age of 88.
Another birthday has solidified my need to do things differently.
Lately, I’ve been spending far more time in doctor’s offices and labs than normal. It appears that this may continue into the foreseeable future. No firm diagnosis yet, just chatter and prognostication.
Damn, I’ve always wanted to use the word “prognostication” in this blog. Yes!!
Another item on the bucket list.
I had a blood draw a few days ago, and I stumped the nursing staff when my best vein decided it would shut down between test tubes 5 and 6. I had 9 to fill, so they poked around in my bad arm. Made me wistful of the good ‘ole days at the RE office during infertility treatment. Those nurses knew my arms like they had a built-in GPS unit.
What I know for sure is I feel like I am 88. My muscles are so, so tender. My hair, well…you know… but now it pales in comparison to the other issues. Walking is a chore. It feels like I am trapped in a stranger’s body. I don’t know if losing weight will cure the diagnosis on the horizon, but I know it will help.
Thank goodness this situation hasn’t curbed my Internet use. (snicker)
So, there I go again. The only beast as big and scary as infertility is losing my health, and I’ll be damned if I take this next chapter of life laying down.
No pun intended.
I had thought about not posting any of these new developments here, but then, I thought… well…. I’ve already talked about the vag-cam for years, what the hell is the difference at this point.
I’m getting tired of thinking about blog posts in my head and never coming back here to type them.
So, for the handful of you still around, be forewarned, I am going UNFILTERED. I have no idea what I just meant there, but it sounded cool.
I’ve already blogged for 6 years here, what’s 44 more?
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2 thoughts on “You’re a hard habit to break”
Sending thoughts your way. And admiring you for planning to be "unfiltered." WAY cool.
I hope things are ok. Thinking of you!!