For the inquiring minds: I tested this morning. I stared back at nothing. Not even a whisper of a line.
Please, do not tell me it’s too early. It’s not.
So this is what it feels like to really fail at something. To exhaust every path, to endure every last available technology. To pump myself full of chemicals that have god knows what affect down the road.
Almost five years of misery. Five years of loss. Five years of chasing a dream only to come up empty.
Empty in mind, body, spirit, and finances.
No next step. No back up plan to the back up plan.
Just sadness, regret, and unbearable pain.
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Shelli, my heart is hurting for you…hugs!
So sorry to hear this horrible news 😦 *hug*
Crap.Oh, Shelli…I'm so sorry. And pissed.REALLY pissed for you.Big, HUGE ((HUGS))
Over from L&F. ((((hugs)))
I'm sorry. It's just not fair. Hugs (from a stranger who reads LFCA).
I've been thinking about you all day, sweetie. I don't know what to say to make you feel better. I wish I did, I truly do. Sending you so much love and peace.*HUGS*
I'm so sorry. Standing at the end of somethng is a terrible, terrible feeling.
Sending you a sincere hug. Hoping it was too soon to test.
I know that at this moment no words will help. But you are not alone. I hope that you POAS a bit early and you will still get your BFP. Either way hang in there…
Abiding and sending love.
I don't know what to tell you Shelli…I know there's nothing I can say. I'm here if you need me.
(((hugs)))
Hoping that it *is* too early.. and wishing that I could find a way to make this happen for you.
I'm sorry, sweetie!
There are no words, just great sadness. My heart breaks for you.
I am so sorry. I wish I had words to make you feel better, but of course I don't. I'm hoping you are wrong, but I know what it's like to be certain – I've been there and it sucks. I'm nearing the end of my all my tries, too. I don't know why you just can't get a break. It is so unfair. Hugs.
I'm so sorry Shelli…that sucks.
I'm so sorry. I haven't commented in awhile, but I have been keeping up and wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you.
So so sorry. Xoxo
I'm so sorry. It's just not fair.
I am so very sorry.
Holding you close in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry Shelli. Life can be so unfair. (((HUGS)))
So sorry Shelli. Hope that somehow you are wrong, but we've both been here before. And I know you will bear this pain, even though it is awful and no one should have to go through all you have to be let down like this. Hug your kids, and let yourself feel the sadness in your time. Thinking of you.
I'm sorry Shelly. Stay strong…let yourself be sad, angry, frustrated, devestated. But you will survive and you will move on.–MM
You're in my heart right now.
Ah, crap. I'm so sorry. 😦
Even if this is a BFN I don't think that you should stop trying naturally. After I miscarried on my first round of IVF and felt the same pain that you did, I got a good therapist wrapped my arms, heart and head around having an awesome only and then got pregnant naturally. A million IUIs, IVF, 3 top-notch doctors and MEGA medical bills later it ended up happening for us on our own. Don't give up.
Shelli, I did the stick TWICE before my beta, on days 6 and 8. BOTH were snowy white negative. And my beta on day 9 was 51.I agree, no ushering in of The Fat Lady until her appearance is truly due.Hang in there, my dear.
I agree with Jodie. I am so sorry that you got a BFN today. I am sorry you have to endure another 24 hours of BFn-ness, not to mention the 5 years. I hope this is a 'too early to tell' scenario (especially since FET implant late) Whatever the situation – my heart and hugs are there for you EB
Um, at the risk of you clobbering me to a bloody pulp, I still think it could be too early. My last IVF cycle (day 5 transfer), I peed on a stick the day before the beta and it was negative. No real symptoms that could be separated from progesterone side effects. And the beta turned out to be positive. Don't make that fat lady go out on stage until the b*tch has to…Thinking of you, re-crossing everything and sending big fuzzy hugs…