Perfecting the art of obsession

I’m so hungry I could eat a horse!

We’ve all heard this line, but I’ve actually said it at least 5 times this week.

My food snack of choice (in-between breakfast, lunch, and dinner) has been Cheez-Its, Raisin Bread, and Frosted Mini-Wheats cereal.

Of course, then I eat said snack with reckless abandon (not volume of portion, but speed) and 20 minutes later I am hungry again and feeling nauseous.

To combat the feeling of the ickies (which sometimes passes with 3-6 cinnamon Tic Tacs) I take a break from work (because work e-mails just make me more ill) and play Solitare on the PC.

The problem is, continuous playing of Solitare puts me into a trance, and almost a sleepy coma.

To wake up from Sleepytown, I brew my decaf coffee (with my most loved appliance, my Keurig Platinum Brewer), imagining that it is caffeinated.

And the cycle repeats.

Once again, I plead with the universe…. I really love having the pregnancy symptoms (I’ve often become giddy this week each time I get sick, I know that’s quite warped) but if this is really a sticky pregnancy, must you insist on being in the front of my mind 24/7?

When you factor in the symptoms and my total obsession with wondering am I ok? am I not ok? Is this going to work? Will I be disappointed again? How many hours till my next u/s again? Oh, that would be 112 hours, 37 minutes and 23 seconds….

Well, I’m just not very productive at the moment. Or rational.

I gave a presentation this morning regarding “contract gross profit” to a bunch of services consultants and the whole time I was thinking about having pizza for dinner (S. had mentioned he wanted pizza instead of making dinner which sent my taste buds reeling).

I need to at least give the impression to my coworkers that I am really working during the day. Not hiding in my home office perpetually on “away” status on IM.

I think I might be blowing that.

3 thoughts on “Perfecting the art of obsession

  1. Shelli,Do you read Amalah? Her posts about her new and scary and thrilling and scary and exciting pregnancy is so similar to yours. I think you’d get a lot of comfort reading about her pregnancy.This one’s a sticker….. I really do believe that for you.

  2. Snacking is good, clean fun. I highly recommend more of it. I’m trying to behave and snack well, but that doesn’t mean that I always have stuff on the recommended list. 😉 We’ve had to get creative, for sure. I usually eat something before I get out of bed (gotta love a husband who will bring you cottage cheese & pineapple, yogurt & granola, cheese & crackers, or a granola bar at the very least), and then I eat regularly throughout the day. It’s no wonder I’m not fitting in my clothes, huh? I hope you can keep the ickies at bay…but I’m glad you have a reason to have the ickies in the first place!

  3. You are so funny. I love how you were thinking of pizza during your presentation!You should get some major leeway for being pregnant – it is difficult physically. I was only pregnant for a brief period before I learned it was ectopic, but I felt awful. I think I’m going to be one of those women who does not like being pregnant and does not get “the glow.”Take time to rest and, of course, snack to your heart’s content. Take care of you and that little one.

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