This might sound a litle corny, but there is a song I listen to on my iPod that always makes me teary.
The weird thing is, I’m sure this song was meant to express the relationship between two soulmates, but when I hear it, I envison it as a poem from me to myself.
Specifically, this song has been a reminder of my infertility struggle and my struggle with self-image, and when I listen to it… it’s a message from me to my physical body. The times we got along, and the times when I’ve been disappointed to the core. I was born in this body, and for 40 years I’ve been trying to make peace with it and love it. It is and continues to be a tough road.
If you aren’t familiar with this song, it’s an old Chaka Kahn song, titled “Love Me Still”. If you have access to iTunes, go take a listen. It’s a beautiful song.
Here is my hand for you to hold
Here’s the part of me they have not sold
I’ve wandered far, I’ve had my fill
I need you now, do you love me stillOnly you have seen the hidden part of me
Call me foolhardy if you will
But I loved you when, do you love me stillSo many smiles and lies surround me
Empty expectations, faceless fears
Sometimes this life is a bitter pill
I love you now, do you love me stillYou have been mine since time untold
Our love is immortal, don’t you know
Others will come, and they will go
But I loved you young, I love you oldOnly you have seen, the other side of me
Call me naive, I think you will
But I loved you then, do you love me still
PS- I am a handbag snob! LOL! I need therapy for it I think…
Hi Shelli! I found you randomly through a new bloglist I joined. I wanted to comment that I love that song and I too have struggled with infertility! I have some info on my own blog you may or may not relate to regarding it. Hold strong and I do hope you get pregnant! It is indeed a tough and frusterating road. I just think it is wonderful and you must be a selfless woman to want to give so much to a baby! Kudos!-Molly