Game Over

Well, sorry to leave you all hanging (I’ve been installing the new home computer all day, more on that later because it has been just frought with roadblocks!).

Friday was the last day I had a positive HPT. The booster/trigger was gone by Saturday, and alas….

no second line to be found.

I was upset about this Saturday night. It means my dream of at least being pregnant before my 40th birthday is gone. I bitched, moaned, and drank a couple of glasses of wine. Then I whimpered on the couch and had another glass of wine. Then I went to bed and couldn’t sleep. The pits.

I don’t feel all that much better today, but I have no choice but to move onward. AF just started mere moments ago, so in a couple of days I’ll be back at the RE’s for a CD3 scan.

We will do one more shot with injectibles/IUI (hopefully we can get the go to start right into another cycle… I have meds left).

If the next is a bust, we aren’t wasting anymore $$ for meds and u/s, when we can get a better chance at IVF. But getting to IVF means the end of the road and money is near…. which is scary.

I leave you with two thoughts for the day:

Windows Vista sucks.
I hate to fail.
2008, how could you piss me off already??? It’s only the first week of the year.

ok, I guess that was three thoughts.

7 thoughts on “Game Over

  1. I’m just getting caught up…and damn, that sucks. My husband and I were talking recently at where we drew the line when it comes to treatmments…I have to admit that each cyle means a new line is drawn and that’s not necessarily a bad thing.

  2. Shelli,I’m really, really, sorry. I just don’t get it. I don’t really have any words, so… ((HUGS))Jenp.s. I’ve found that Vista does get better…

  3. Shelli – I am so very sorry. You are in my thoughts. I know how devastating those negatives are. Then AF comes to greet you. Fun.I say go for IVF as soon as you can. IVF has really good odds. I’m saying this even though I just had a failed IVF. I know it will work for me; it’s just a matter of when. You’ll be surprised at how, if you get to IVF (and I hope you don’t have to), your perspective changes. IVF suddenly becomes a beginning and not an end.Thinking of you. Take care of yourself.- Angela

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