Happiness Lost and Found

Well, I sort of followed my happiness ritual, although I have to admit there were days I was so down on life lighting a candle was the furthest thing from my mind.

The times I did light my candle alongside my office desk, I was mindful that the purpose was to stimulate happiness.

So there were days when I wanted to hurl it across the room… such as the days I couldn’t enjoy the fragrance of the candle because I had a) the flu, and then b) strep throat.

And then there were the days I just didn’t want to light it because moving from my chair was an exercise I had no motivation to do. Such as the recent ‘bad’ days as I’ve waited for the end to this miscarriage cycle.

But there were some good days. Like the day my cat, Luke, jumped up on the desk and watched the candle flicker above. I was mesmerized that he was mesmerized, and that made me think about how much my cat has been through with me. He was my companion long before I married S., and boy, has he seen a range of emotions over the last 16 years.

And then there was the day I lit one of my favorite scents, and curiously, a long forgotten memory was at the front of my mind. It was of my Grandmother, and it brought comfort on a day I needed it.

So I guess I didn’t totally fail this month. And I ended up with probably a couple extra happy moments that I would have otherwise not had.

I think I may be more successful at the second Happiness ChallengeMeditation.

Now here’s something right up my alley, and I can lay down doing it. lol.

Lord knows I could use some serious meditation.

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